Been neglecting this again, it feels almost shameful to post in here because I feel so bad about me these days, but then the point of this was to write down everything I do and feel regardless of whether its good or not. Ok to start, I chose the title of this blog from a beautiful south song, it seemed appropriate as a part of that song is just a list of girls names, (Jennifer, alison, philippa sue, Deborah Annabel Too) and my blog is starting too look like that (Katy, Annie, Neko, Andi, Tania, Amanda) mine just don't rhyme. So didn't end up meeting Tania, got the distinct vibe she wasn't ready so soon after breaking up, perfectly understandable. Thursday we start talking to Amanda, Friday we meet Amanda, she stay's with me in the hotel friday and saturday night, by saturday we're an official couple, take her to see happy feet on Sunday, very nice cute day out. Meet her again the following thursday, she stays at my house that night and friday night and most of saturday night... mid Saturday night she starts crying, crying because she misses her ex, despite the fact that apparently I make her happier than anyone ever has and I pay attention to her and look after her and all that. Anyway these two obviously had somethin special, I tell her if she has to go to be happy I won't fall out with her, just happy she's honest (not a lie). So that night in a bizarre twist i end up on the phone to this guy giving him directions to my house. I just tell her to take her time and let me know when she's made her mind up. Monday morning we're over they're back together. Officially my shortest relationship ever. Andi's went off the rails with me, due to the short time span between her and Amanda she's quite convinced that I was cheating on her. I admit the time was harsh but I kinda thought she'd know me better than to even think I'd do that to her. So anyway, Andi hates me, Amanda has left me for her ex, yet still tells me she misses me, loves me and other things, though I just get the feeling I'd get told that I'm immature if I can't handle that. Spoke to Katy this morning on the office phone, she's comin over to pick up some menu's. And I STILL get that fucking stupid smiley fuzzy feeling when i talk to her. I started this blog just after she broke up with me, thats how long ago it was. Not to mention the events concerning relationships ive had since then. I feel like such a manwhore piece of shit for having feelings for all these different girls. A good week for hating meself. Ok lookin for good news to round off, decorations are up in my house, Amanda did the tree and it looks great, Oh and my dining table comes on saturday, don't even know why I'm referring to it as a dining table as it seems everyone just wants to play poker on it. Oh and the boss has (provisionally) given me christmas eve, christmas day, boxing day, new years eve and new years day off! first time in 4 years. Deck the halls motherfuckers. So we do have something to smile about. Although it is the 13th of December and I have bought no presents at all. Shit